be here to love me

13 weeks as of tomorrow! 

I can't believe my belly's sticking out so far. I'm sure most of it is water retention and bloating (how I despise that word), but it sure is sticking out. At least I have some proof that I'm actually pregnant, because sometimes I just feel crazy and pudgy. 

My pants are really starting to not fit, even though I'm not gaining much weight. 

I weigh myself every morning, and throughout the day. I waver between 116 and 120. Most women gain the majority of their weight during the second trimester, so I've got that to look forward to. 

I have a presentation in one of my classes tomorrow, and I'm not looking forward to that. I'm morbidly nervous about presentations, and my heart speeds up uncontrollably and I blush, and I don't even hear what I'm saying. That's what happens when I do presentations, so tonight I'm not even practicing. I'll just get up there tomorrow and suffer through it, no reason to suffer through it mentally tonight. 

Today I worked on my baby registry at target.com. It's fun, exciting, and weird to be picking out baby stuff. I've been asking Lindsay for advice, and she tells me what she loved, what she never used, and what she already has that she'll let me borrow, which is a HUGE blessing. 

Another blessing: my brother left for basic training today, and he decided to let me borrow his car while he's away for 5+ months. That's wonderful because I can run errands now without having to coordinate with Scott. I can just grocery shop or do laundry when I have some time, and then he doesn't have to try to fit it into his tight schedule. Even more importantly, Scott's car is a coupe, which would be a pain in the ass to have to put a child in and out of a carseat in the back, but David's car has four doors. It will make life easier. I have a secret plan to keep David's car, but we'll see how that goes. 

Well, I didn't mean to blab so much about myself, but I've just been tremendously blessed as of late, and I'm so so grateful.